I swam 200 metres today. That's 100 more than yesterday. I make incremental progress. The first day I swum backwards, and got caught in a riptide. I watched the horizon recede as the current pulled me away, and I knew I had to keep my head above water. And when the current broke, I could… Continue reading Sea of Anxiety
My mind has always been a school of fish, roaming the rivers in many directions. There is unity in the grand formation, but also chaos as each thought brushes up against its neighbour, creating a ripple effect. But in certain moments, everything becomes still. I am floating in the deep sea, and looking up at… Continue reading Calm
There is a persistent hum in the office. It's the overlapping voices of workers in online meetings, putting on their headsets the way soldiers strap on helmets before battle. The pre-battle ritual before the helicopter lands and the dial connects: take a sip of water, clear the throat, plaster on a smile that will be… Continue reading Corporate
I lie awake tonight listening to the cars outside on roads slick with rainwater. I have jitters from the dexedrine I took, or maybe it's the adrenaline of hours of exercise. It's warm inside the thick walls of my friend's apartment, though the wind was crisp on my nose tip when I was outside mere… Continue reading Insomnia
There’s a saying that having less of something only makes you want it more. Here is the life you imagine, the life you want. And here is the life you get. Here you lie wondering about waking up in a different time, a different place. Here you are, waking up in your own bed instead.… Continue reading Waiting
There are two voices inside my head. One is a record-player of all my worst moments. It is the retrospective realisation that I have made too rash an action and hurt someone. It is the sting of broken relationships, the turbulence of my emotions and the whiplash of regret. It is the addict and cliff-diver,… Continue reading Voices
Sometimes, you have a bad day. You wake up on the wrong side of the bed. You can't find your phone, your wallet or your keys. You're late for work. Again. Things weigh you down. You have looming deadlines. You have mountainous piles of work to do. You fight with your boss, your colleague or… Continue reading This Is Written For You
Because when you take a break, time stops being expensive. It becomes invaluable. You stop worrying about the time you have left and starting thinking about the time you have. To play an instrument or walk around the park. To learn the things you've always wanted to learn. To spend time with people who make… Continue reading Reasons to Take a Break
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