My mind has always been a school of fish, roaming the rivers in many directions. There is unity in the grand formation, but also chaos as each thought brushes up against its neighbour, creating a ripple effect. But in certain moments, everything becomes still. I am floating in the deep sea, and looking up at… Continue reading Calm
There is a persistent hum in the office. It's the overlapping voices of workers in online meetings, putting on their headsets the way soldiers strap on helmets before battle. The pre-battle ritual before the helicopter lands and the dial connects: take a sip of water, clear the throat, plaster on a smile that will be… Continue reading Corporate
I lie awake tonight listening to the cars outside on roads slick with rainwater. I have jitters from the dexedrine I took, or maybe it's the adrenaline of hours of exercise. It's warm inside the thick walls of my friend's apartment, though the wind was crisp on my nose tip when I was outside mere… Continue reading Insomnia
There’s a saying that having less of something only makes you want it more. Here is the life you imagine, the life you want. And here is the life you get. Here you lie wondering about waking up in a different time, a different place. Here you are, waking up in your own bed instead.… Continue reading Waiting
There is a special concept in the novel 1984 by George Orwell, called doublethink. It's the idea that you can simultaneously accept two contradictory statements as truth. Below is an excerpt: "To know and not to know, to be conscious of complete truthfulness while telling carefully constructed lies, to hold simultaneously two opinions which cancelled… Continue reading Doublethink
There are two voices inside my head. One is a record-player of all my worst moments. It is the retrospective realisation that I have made too rash an action and hurt someone. It is the sting of broken relationships, the turbulence of my emotions and the whiplash of regret. It is the addict and cliff-diver,… Continue reading Voices
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